thinking through ur life, what was it that made it significant?
love? family? fame? fortune?
I find it hard to expect too much in life anymore...
Not a matter of emo-ness or anything to that effect but simply
what's the motivation in doing so much?
Is there an end to seek?
Am I forever pursuing an end to means with no clear sight of what the ultimate end is?
How do I know the path I am set on is one which is what I would desire?
Some people do say that it's the mystery in not knowing that is what keeps them going
Why is that so?
Mariko once said that it's because she's of that age
that she knows what failure is like and how not to be so hopeful.
So if I am at this age and thinking of stuff like that
does it signify that I am wasting time pursuing and that I start facing reality?
Who was there to guide those who are motivated?
Who is there to give an honest feedback without judging you?
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
just some thoughts
am wrapping up my Contract law revision for the day... unproductive... just covered Misrepresentation and Intention to Create Legal Relations. Shall put in more effort tomorrow and sleep lesser
have been thinking about this for quite some time now. on how hard it is to stay committed to a girl. or to go for one who seems like would be a long term affair...
first off, reasons for wanting to be single: $$$$$
I do not wanna be in a position to compromise the comfort of my family's. most girls these days are like expensive to maintain. now they are like really pampered as their dads are like CEOs or directors etc. how can one like me think about giving them the exact life they have been used to? breakdown in r/s is a high possibility
next: truth
just feel that the girl would not really like me for who I am. I mean, how many of them actually know what I am like? guys appear different to girls because they wanna attract them; it's a natural phenomenon. I think when they know the true me, they would wanna go away
there are probably a million reasons but these two have been really persistent in telling me to say no. I guess it's just how I am. and this sucky personality probably resulted in making life difficulty for the many "her"s in my life
have been thinking about this for quite some time now. on how hard it is to stay committed to a girl. or to go for one who seems like would be a long term affair...
first off, reasons for wanting to be single: $$$$$
I do not wanna be in a position to compromise the comfort of my family's. most girls these days are like expensive to maintain. now they are like really pampered as their dads are like CEOs or directors etc. how can one like me think about giving them the exact life they have been used to? breakdown in r/s is a high possibility
next: truth
just feel that the girl would not really like me for who I am. I mean, how many of them actually know what I am like? guys appear different to girls because they wanna attract them; it's a natural phenomenon. I think when they know the true me, they would wanna go away
there are probably a million reasons but these two have been really persistent in telling me to say no. I guess it's just how I am. and this sucky personality probably resulted in making life difficulty for the many "her"s in my life
Saturday, May 8, 2010
wonderful dinner
had a great dinner last night...
emma's and laura's spinach creation
some ice cream
mike's white wine
great fun with wii
mike's insane innate ability in driving games
killer white wine...
argh
emma's and laura's spinach creation
some ice cream
mike's white wine
great fun with wii
mike's insane innate ability in driving games
killer white wine...
argh
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
果てなき
Just as I was pondering about issues of life, on finding a befitting end which I'd, to borrow bella's description, 'imagine' of, I came across this word "果てなき" which together with another few words, forms the title of a song. How ironical.
We do so much in life, from schooling and learning, to finding great jobs to ensure a stable and fulfilling life. And then when we think logically, where's the end to this? At every stage in life, we are simply fulfilling the means to an end. The means being the process of studying, searching for a job etc. And yet, when we do get it, that illusory end we were striving for, that is great results or a great job, we start repeat everything again, this end now becomes the new means to another greater end.
What's this 'end' that we are looking for? Family? Wealth? Status? These examples would once more become means to another end again. It's not a matter of being greedy or demanding. It's a matter of finding what it is that one should be looking forward to in life. And not some artificial end which is easily cast aside.
We do so much in life, from schooling and learning, to finding great jobs to ensure a stable and fulfilling life. And then when we think logically, where's the end to this? At every stage in life, we are simply fulfilling the means to an end. The means being the process of studying, searching for a job etc. And yet, when we do get it, that illusory end we were striving for, that is great results or a great job, we start repeat everything again, this end now becomes the new means to another greater end.
What's this 'end' that we are looking for? Family? Wealth? Status? These examples would once more become means to another end again. It's not a matter of being greedy or demanding. It's a matter of finding what it is that one should be looking forward to in life. And not some artificial end which is easily cast aside.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
on a separate note
Why do I feel so unhappy seeing her going out with some other guy? And I know that guy! And it's impossible that they are dating... WTF. Screw this
exam...
Exams are coming and am finally in a mood to do some serious revision! Printed loads of past year (dating till 2004) so I can have a semi '10 years series' to work on! BRING IT ON!!!!
14 June - Alcohol & Entertainment Licensing Law .... 45 days time!
19 June - Contract Law ............................. 50 days time!
21 June - European Law ............................. 52 days time!
22 June - Constitutional and Administration Law .... 53 days time!
25 June - International Law ........................ 56 days time!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
14 June - Alcohol & Entertainment Licensing Law .... 45 days time!
19 June - Contract Law ............................. 50 days time!
21 June - European Law ............................. 52 days time!
22 June - Constitutional and Administration Law .... 53 days time!
25 June - International Law ........................ 56 days time!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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