Been so infatuated with WOW these days that I feel it's draining the life out of me slowly... my lifestyle has become so irregular... I sleep so late, wake up so early (to do instances with Americans) and then nap in the afternoon..
After napping, I decided to catch up on some old stuff and went to download them... 500kbs :D. Anyways, as WOW would seriously lag if I were to download and play, decided to look at other blogs such as XiaXue and TypicalBen... then, I chanced upon a very old blog...
Sometimes, blogs like that do make others feel rather sentimental and probably guilty due to a previous event or occurrence. If we had decided to go on further, or if I had not pulled the plug, I wonder what would my life be like today... I could see the devotion and love coming from the start of the blog/online diary.. and anguish and confusion towards the end... Did it really have to end that way? I always thought that ex lovers could be friends after the relationship ended but I guess it's always an excuse I give myself to give up on the relationship altogether.
Sure people would tell me that I am heartless or others would comfort me saying that I did the right decision and that it's for the best. However, reflecting on all that, I guess it was the best for me and I really had little concerns for the other party. Even if it meant a time of suffering and sadness for her, at that point of time, I really wanted it and pushed for a breakup and oppressed her to be friends to forget all that had happened. This did not occur only once and shamefully it's my trait.
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